40 scenes - my day

1. wake alone, my snoring drove mike out of the bedroom.  damn tonsils.  this cold is hanging on.
2. the sky just starting to lighten
3. girls asking for warm milk
4. boil water for coffee
5. owl shirt, braids, yearbook order form (really, for kindergarten?)
6. dress, brush, feed amelia, send her out the door with mike
7. attempt to work on school work while the cutest three-year-old on the planet distracts me
8. make aven's lunch
9. realize that it is amelia's day to bring snack and she has already left
10. panic over the 22 kindergarteners that will be starving because of me
11. chop wood, stoke fires, pack my school bag
12. shower, dress, make tea for the road (coffee is long gone)
13. buckle aven into her carseat, drive off forgetting the mail
14. deliver creative-last-minute snack to amelia's school
15. drop aven and her lunch at preschool
16. park, walk, relax my shoulders
17. ask myself why the rush, what would happen if you just relax for a second?  Enjoy the blue sky, the wind, the nearness of spring

18. relax shoulders again as I walk into class
19. mind is blown by the guest presentation of an orthodox rabbi
20. contemplate giving more of my soulbrainmind to faith.  decide i cannever willnever be orthodox anything
21. race to pick aven up
22. race to get gas and get home before amelia's bus
23. haul aven's sleeping body out of her carseat.  strip her of shoes and nestle her into my bed
24. meet amelia's bus with seconds to spare
25. gather eggs, feed chickens, fill cow water tank, carry two five gallon buckets to the horse
26. watch thrown hay as it is caught by wind as it arcs into jack's pasture from my hands
27. watch as ruby chases a fox out of the windbreak, watch as she gains on the fox before looping around and returning to me as I shout her name into the wind
28. chop wood
29. scratch together enough leftovers for dinner
30. take aven's temperature as she sits at the dinner table with flushed cheeks.  102.1
31. efffffffff...
32. swap her dinner for a lime popsicle and tylenol
33. dishes, jammies, brush teeth
34. dance with amelia to wilco, the weepies...ipod is stuck on 'w' artists

35. read two chapters of the boxcar children and the guinea pig ABCs. 
36. mediate a quickhot fight over a seashell
37. haul blankets, water glasses and sleepy children up the stairs
38. tuck them in and kiss their sweet faces
39. stoke fires, finish a glass of wine, and realize my take-home test is due tomorrow
40. sit down and stare at the computer screen.  make this list.  hit publish.

**Here I am.  Another day.  And I am still standing.**