I saw my brother a few days ago. He's moving to Hawaii in December. He had spent a few days at our mom's house on the lake, a place that holds a lot of history for our family.
He told me I just kept thinking how, it could be years before I see the lake again.
I agreed, that it must feel strange to know you're leaving, but to not have left yet...and to leave Montana, the place he's lived all his life, the mountains he is named after. This is no small thing, I think.
Well, you've never left, either he said...and it's true.
If I could sit down with myself, my ten-years-ago-self...19, and certain the adventures were just beginning, I would not have believed that in only ten years I would have two daughters...that I would be a mom, that I would still be living in Montana.
But there is absolutely nowhere else I'd rather be.
Especially on a warm day in October...
"Oh, I'll never leave Montana, brother." - Norman Maclean, A River Runs Through It
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I just read that book and I am so in love with Montana. I can't blame you for never wanting to leave. We spent a few weeks in Whitehorse last summer (and traveling through to various other spots)... it's amazing... definitely God's country. And I have to say that for you to be that grounded and to give your kids what you had is truly inspiring. And back to the book. I swallowed it whole the first time I read it and now I'm about to go back through with a highlighter. It's so, so good.
oh, yes. if only we could talk to those 19 year old selves...course, would that 19 year old self listen? believe?
who knows.
funny how life works, though. i just had the thought today - "it's been 2 1/2 years since the child was born, and i'm *still* waiting for my mind to catch up with my heart."
know what i mean?
yer lovely. sending safe travel faeries at yer brother and some deep mama love to you.
I can totally relate. At 19 the last thing in the world I ever wanted was to be married, with children and "still" living in Utah. But it has brought with it so many joys and I couldn't be happier, although there is a part of me that still yearns to get out of Utah, but not to some fast passed big city like it was when I was 19. Now it is to some grand piece of land where I can hide away and enjoy a quiet, serene and simple lifestyle.
christi! you said it, mama.
"...but not to some fast passed big city like it was when I was 19. Now it is to some grand piece of land where I can hide away and enjoy a quiet, serene and simple lifestyle."
I love the simplicity of words and beauty of the natural world in your posts.
And I agree, there's no place I'd rather be than here at 6512 feet, especially on a warm, october afternoon. Swoon.
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