no one has been here since
the last rain, the sand dimpled below
the paths of stormclouds. This heat
feels different, like a breath
that lays against you, steals your air.
the killdeer nest is empty
even the eggshells are gone and the evening
feels new and brightly cracked.
again and again you submerge
in the goldgreen light of the river, opening
your eyes to smooth stone,
to the hazy cold
that is always here
at the edge of the world.
bare foot notes
*small steps under the big sky*
Monday, July 15, 2019
Sunday, July 14, 2019
july 14
morning sun through waterstained windows
while the coffee brews, midsummer
slowly stretches through the house, the garden
lazily weeded, the plans for the day unwritten.
waiting in uncertainty is what I do
when I wait for you, the grass morningwet
nearly to my knees, the sky still undecided.
the robins have finished with their nest
so I can finally take it down
and paint the shed they built on.
while the coffee brews, midsummer
slowly stretches through the house, the garden
lazily weeded, the plans for the day unwritten.
waiting in uncertainty is what I do
when I wait for you, the grass morningwet
nearly to my knees, the sky still undecided.
the robins have finished with their nest
so I can finally take it down
and paint the shed they built on.
Friday, February 5, 2016
the first day
For the first time the day felt like it was not
entirely winter, but beginning the soft caving in
that begins something else. A V of geese, low and perfect
over the roof are lit differently today; the slant of sun
lighting the precision of their wings
softens suddenly and without fanfare.
I have an unexpected day to myself, a chair
near the woodstove, a cleared table to work at.
I'm still being realistic. The frost still blurs to opaque
the mudroom windows. The sparrows still crowd
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Lyme
Just days past solstice and the hours stretch
like strung wires across another sky rippled blue
her fever's been gone for days and still
it is your fear that snaps you from bed
each morning. You run on wide dirt roads
because the snakes are out
like strung wires across another sky rippled blue
her fever's been gone for days and still
it is your fear that snaps you from bed
each morning. You run on wide dirt roads
because the snakes are out
and you need to see
where your feet fall. Just yesterday
you passed a small one, the diamonds
along its back just coming into focus.
You run farther and faster than you ever have-
antelopes freeze on hilltops and you
are the only moving thing for miles.
When she wakes you'll hold her and ask
all the same questions, how do you feel
how do you feel? The olive tree blooms
and fills the air with thick honey, wet
black calves are licked clean by their mothers,
the river runs lower than it should.
It's June and unbelieveably lovely and
what you feel is the bright stone of fear
between your lungs. This disease doesn't
exist where you live, each question turns back
on itself. You watch her sleep away
the middle of each blue day, imagining
the fight happening in her small pale body.
you passed a small one, the diamonds
along its back just coming into focus.
You run farther and faster than you ever have-
antelopes freeze on hilltops and you
are the only moving thing for miles.
When she wakes you'll hold her and ask
all the same questions, how do you feel
how do you feel? The olive tree blooms
and fills the air with thick honey, wet
black calves are licked clean by their mothers,
the river runs lower than it should.
It's June and unbelieveably lovely and
what you feel is the bright stone of fear
between your lungs. This disease doesn't
exist where you live, each question turns back
on itself. You watch her sleep away
the middle of each blue day, imagining
the fight happening in her small pale body.
Sunday, March 22, 2015
beginning again, a rough draft
It seems it shouldn't feel so hard, this sitting down
for a minute to type a few words, or
knowing where to begin, choosing between
describing the small puffed clouds of her sleeves,
the campfire ash and marshmallow
contentment of her face,
or the way her older sister's bare feet
curled around the warm belly of her pony,
sideways spring sunlight holding her.
Knowing where to start
is where I falter.
But the light this morning is perfect, fat robins
perched on every fencepost, the invisible trill
of sandhill cranes overhead. We work ourselves into
a rhythm even when we feel the most scattered.
Mike has eased into spring work, spending seven days
a week in the fields, with a kind of grace I could never have.
But I've learned to blend most of the farmchores into my days
driving the old blue truck out, followed by a trail of hungry mama cows,
setting the stick shift to the slowest gear, holding the steering wheel
at a straight course, then jumping from the cab to climb
aboard the moving trailer, to balance while we roll across the field,
forking hay to my hungry friends. I'm becoming more graceful
with this whole process, and it feels something like a parade,
my pose altogether different than a beauty queen waving
from a convertible. My legs wide for balance, pitchfork wielding
last year's grass, baler twine hanging from my back pocket,
my mind and body in the same place at the same time,
and maybe starting again
isn't so hard after all.
Thursday, October 16, 2014
getting there
stop at the gas station, grocery store,
water bottles filled, almonds and candycorn
clutched in fists.
Facing north we start to sing - we know
a few Halloween songs,
wagon wheel, the circle game.
Our valley unfolds like a rumpled
bedsheet, the last stands of bright aspen,
cottonwood vibrate gold against the muted brown
of October farmland. We follow the river north.
The wind
becomes a force like the highway itself-
pushing back
as we move through it.
Bruised sky and sudden dash of rain
against the windshield, the car quiets as the girls pull on
headphones, drift off through time and space
in a magic treehouse.
Near Deer Lodge the sky clears again,
sideways light of late afternoon turns semis
into magical beasts, each falling leaf caught
in the draft of traffic into pirates' gold.
I've been traveling these highways
all my life, they are familiar paths
to the places I love. I have a story for
every small town along they way; I know
that my grandmother would order
the grilled cheese at Trixie's Saloon
in Ovando, I know the fishing access where my 7th grade
class stopped for lunch on a field trip,
my wonderful teacher reading us poetry as we sat beside
the Little Blackfoot. I know the empty, rolling stretch
of highway where, at thirteen, my stepdad pulled over
and told me to switch seats with him so I could learn
to drive.
And I know the destination. A place
stitched into my soul- the smell
of glacial silt and lakewater, the mix
of mist and larch needles, and in October
the sound of geese
moving on.
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
a million things to be: portraits 5/52
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